
My weight, however, is the worse it has been since I was pregnant. Do you think I can focus on weight loss again when my family are all back together again (and I can join a gym to do my favorite swimming...which has a creche for kids!). I feel out of control, but stress and tiredness make me reach for food. I feel guilty and then a vicious circle starts! I lost 70 lbs before. I need to lose at least 30-40 lbs now to get into 120/130 range I like (5 foot 1)... I really wish I could focus on it. I keep starting and failing, and that is just self-defeating. Oh well...sorry for that brief interlude into the dark recesses of my mind, LOL!!

Tonight I have some friends coming over for a dip in the hot tub...two of them have been in before, but it will be a first for one of the girls...very decadent...drinking bacardi and coke in the hot tub watching the sun go down...very late tonight, nearly 11pm!! We might be selling the hot tub, but I'm angling to keep it in the smaller less private garden...if people want to look at my lumps and bumps while I soak...I say, let em!!


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